i've been fallen for him since that day. i feel so useless, cant do the right thing. just hoping i will find 'him' one day. its hard you know. cos i cant tell him my true feelings. thinking of him day and night make me feel so weak. have been suffering for weeks. i dont know what his love has done to me. emo-ing whenever i think of him. hoping one day when i watch him walk away, i can say "i'm fine without you." cos everything is changed and he is acting so strange. maybe it's safe to say that i'm ready to let him leave. it never crossed my mind at all, that's what i tell myself, what we had has come and gone. he's better off with someone else, it is for the best, i know it is.. everytime i try to hide what i feel inside. seeing other people with their loved ones so happy yet so long, wondering why i cant have it too? maybe i'll regret everything i've said one day and there's no way to take it all back. then i'll be on my own, how i let him go, i'll never understand.